I am in a relationship. which in itself is nothing admirable or commendable or even news worthy (unless you are that shallow). Marital Status is supposed to be like religion. only people who are wants to be in a relationship with you care about . But it's Egypt, so no, it's everybody's business and everyone has an opinion and some people will treat you differently according to it.
Not in a hundred years I thought it matter, except for the sincere "3o2ballek" and the not so sincere "shedy 7ellek" it's something that people don't spend their life caring about.
But then I actually was in a relationship, a relationship that some people deemed unworthy of me.
I always though "You deserve better than this" is just a phrase people say but whether they believe it or not, won't make a direct change to the way they treat me, maybe the way they treat my partner, but never me.
But boy was I wrong.
Does it make any sense that people Love you so much they hate you? isn't the point of being in a relationship is happiness? if you are happy, your partner is happy and both of your immediate family is happy , then does anyone else matter. does a friend has a right to move heaven and earth to kill that budding romance . trying to alienate you from all your common friends, the excuse! She deserves better
Who's to say if you deserve better or worst, and even so isn't the end result in your own hands, if both parties satisfied does anyone else matter?
I've never been the one for love, the kind of girl who follows love where ever it leads, quite the contrary , I was the type of girl that ran so fast from love. Didn't believe in it to begin with but just in case never was a round someone , who i might fall for.
- OMG! he haven't taken his eyes off you for the last 5 minutes he must like you.
- He has been flirting with daily for month now, it must mean something
- Come on, he only comes when you are around, maybe he is interested
No, no and no. he is looking at me cause he thinks he knows me from somewhere, he flirts cause he's bored and he comes when am around cause I am fun to be around.
I never try to explain guys behaviors as interest, I don't like to overestimate simple gestures. and deep inside I was terrified of love, I see it as weakness, and I always recognized in my personality that tendency to go very weak. to give everything for the one I love and derive my happiness from their happiness , so I steered away from it. No body was worthy of me, cause I didn't want to give part of me to anyone.
But Fate always have other plans , someone saw me , studied me , saw my weakness and went for it. it sound evil , malicious and devious but it's not.
the definition of love is an intense feeling of deep affection I've never been the one to have intense feelings, other than intense feeling of loneliness and sadness both unexplained and I got so used to those that sometimes I just miss them it's rare but like a companion I've had for so long I out of loyalty try to fake them, but I have no patience for them anymore.
the definition of relationship is the state of being connected. I actually do feel connected to someone all the time. it's a nice feeling. I have to admit I miss being single , the freedom of doing what you want when you want and not caring about what anyone else thinks or wants. but slowly that feeling is starting to fade.
I am not good at feelings and am even worst at communicating my feelings, so alot of time I mess up, because I can't communicate what I want or what I need.Maybe I will grow better in it as times goes by. But I can't help feeling too old for that game. Like when you start to play a game so late while everyone else is so far ahead.
It doesn't help that a huge chunk of your friends or your so-called-friends keep telling you , you are doing it wrong based on their experience relationships are not supposed to be like this.
I might not have a lot of Experience but I know this much is true,
* Every relationship is NOT the same, different people have different dynamics.
* Make your relationship not about the fact that you are in a relationship, make it about the guy/girl. It must always be a way not a mean.
all i know about love so far is it's making me so happy, I would do anything for love it might be an illusion, but it's the sweetest yet. so I will live in an illusion until it gets smashed on the harsh rock of reality
Not in a hundred years I thought it matter, except for the sincere "3o2ballek" and the not so sincere "shedy 7ellek" it's something that people don't spend their life caring about.
But then I actually was in a relationship, a relationship that some people deemed unworthy of me.
I always though "You deserve better than this" is just a phrase people say but whether they believe it or not, won't make a direct change to the way they treat me, maybe the way they treat my partner, but never me.
But boy was I wrong.
Does it make any sense that people Love you so much they hate you? isn't the point of being in a relationship is happiness? if you are happy, your partner is happy and both of your immediate family is happy , then does anyone else matter. does a friend has a right to move heaven and earth to kill that budding romance . trying to alienate you from all your common friends, the excuse! She deserves better
Who's to say if you deserve better or worst, and even so isn't the end result in your own hands, if both parties satisfied does anyone else matter?
I've never been the one for love, the kind of girl who follows love where ever it leads, quite the contrary , I was the type of girl that ran so fast from love. Didn't believe in it to begin with but just in case never was a round someone , who i might fall for.
- OMG! he haven't taken his eyes off you for the last 5 minutes he must like you.
- He has been flirting with daily for month now, it must mean something
- Come on, he only comes when you are around, maybe he is interested
No, no and no. he is looking at me cause he thinks he knows me from somewhere, he flirts cause he's bored and he comes when am around cause I am fun to be around.
I never try to explain guys behaviors as interest, I don't like to overestimate simple gestures. and deep inside I was terrified of love, I see it as weakness, and I always recognized in my personality that tendency to go very weak. to give everything for the one I love and derive my happiness from their happiness , so I steered away from it. No body was worthy of me, cause I didn't want to give part of me to anyone.
But Fate always have other plans , someone saw me , studied me , saw my weakness and went for it. it sound evil , malicious and devious but it's not.
the definition of love is an intense feeling of deep affection I've never been the one to have intense feelings, other than intense feeling of loneliness and sadness both unexplained and I got so used to those that sometimes I just miss them it's rare but like a companion I've had for so long I out of loyalty try to fake them, but I have no patience for them anymore.
the definition of relationship is the state of being connected. I actually do feel connected to someone all the time. it's a nice feeling. I have to admit I miss being single , the freedom of doing what you want when you want and not caring about what anyone else thinks or wants. but slowly that feeling is starting to fade.
I am not good at feelings and am even worst at communicating my feelings, so alot of time I mess up, because I can't communicate what I want or what I need.Maybe I will grow better in it as times goes by. But I can't help feeling too old for that game. Like when you start to play a game so late while everyone else is so far ahead.
It doesn't help that a huge chunk of your friends or your so-called-friends keep telling you , you are doing it wrong based on their experience relationships are not supposed to be like this.
I might not have a lot of Experience but I know this much is true,
* Every relationship is NOT the same, different people have different dynamics.
* Make your relationship not about the fact that you are in a relationship, make it about the guy/girl. It must always be a way not a mean.
all i know about love so far is it's making me so happy, I would do anything for love it might be an illusion, but it's the sweetest yet. so I will live in an illusion until it gets smashed on the harsh rock of reality
2 comments:
enjoy and embrace.. fuck those who are stupid and butting in with negativity ;)
Thanx Diva am doing exactly that , 3o2ballek & shedy 7ellek :P
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